Random ramblings

We both had been not well since the past few days. Ok this week has been so hectic for me. Joining marketing department, it does mean I have to stand in a booth under the hot sun! Stop being dramatic fasha. U sure enjoyed the good food served.lol

Yes I do admit I still can feel the sweetness of rendang daging. It is something that is very outstanding, that I can still feel it in my mouth. Oh now the saliva is watering my mouth.

Woke up at 5.30 am yesterday, after a short nap (i had this problem of waking up periodically from 1 until 5.) I had set my alarm clock, but I was constantly awaken by the fear of not waking up. And I was freaking out to the extent of telling my mil to wake me up.lol. Thanks mama! 

Oh well my mil do nags at me. Well I take this positively. It means she loves me, and treat me like her own child (perasan).

I still remember her first tazkirah pointed to her dearest (lah sangat) daughter in law. Yes her newly wed daughter in law is drinking while standing. Oh how could she when she has just getting married and supposed to be soft spoken, well mannered, polite, etc etc.

Ok enough of ramblings. We both are now worn out to the extent we barely able to have a long conversation in the bed. Just some some small talk before we both doze off to lalaland. What worst is that, it is only Thurs. Friday is coming. One more working day. sigh.sigh

hai macam mana gaji nak berkat fasha weh, mengeluh jeeeee...cannot lah.

Sumbang

Bila selalu melangkah berdua,
tiba-tiba berjalan sendirian,

Bila selalu tidur berteman
tiba-tiba keseorangan,

Bila selalu makan menghadap,
tiba-tiba bersendirian,

langkah jadi sumbang,
akal runsing,

jiwa mati.

Random ramblings

In certain conditions, things are better left unsaid. Bear in mind, no one can be trusted but yourself. Or none, if it is me. Because I cant trust my mouth. Yeah I have a big mouth. Well I can keep secrets, so no worries your secrets are safe with me. I just cant contain myself from telling stupid jokes to people I am not comfortable with. Those people in which you can hear the drop of the needles when you are having conversation with them. See how awkward is it. Or maybe it cannot be called conversation, maybe question and answer sessions. lol.

I can still remember how we used to talk as fast as a bullet (does this proverb exist? haha) so others can take  their turns. How we fight just to keep on telling stories. Oh how I miss those times. 

I can talk for four hours non stop provided my partner is my click. I miss the times when my  best friend and I were sharing the bed in the hostel, talking and giggling about stupid things. How much time we had back then, when nothing mattered most, except for happiness.

I just cant befriend a gedik person. I just cant. No matter how I force myself to smile at her (yes i do force myself to smile). Not a genuine smile. I fake my smile. Lol.

From I was a kid, I never failed to hate a gedik person.hahaha

Tips Rumahtangga #2

Lebih 6 bulan berkahwin, aku ambil masa juga untuk adjust kehidupan. Hidup solo dan hidup berumahtangga, manakan sama. Kalau masa bercinta dulu, berjumpa waktu keluar je. Kita tak mengadap muka dia time tidur, time bersiap, time tengok tv. Bila dah doplohpatjam bersama ni, macam macam la karenah dia yang kita dapat tengok. Time bercinta tak nampak. Bukanlah kata masa bercinta tu hipokrit, tapi takde peluang nak ditunjukkan sebab masa berjumpa yang terhad.

Pengalaman peribadi selama 6 bulan lebih ni, aku tak pernah tau suami aku ni zero at cooking. Langsung zero. Haha nak rebus jagung pon tanya cara-cara macam mana. Adus nak pengsan aku dengar. Haha. Kalau sesekali makan meggi tu, punyalah koboi meggi dia. aku ingat budak hostel je darurat makan meggi yang direbus dengan air panas. rupanya laki aku pon praktikan benda yang sama. dah kalau kat hostel, megi celur air panas tu sebab mudah. dapur takde. rice cooker mana boleh bawak. Ni yang suami aku ni, dapur periuk semua lengkap, boleh celur je.

haiii urut dada jelah aku. tapi nasib baik siap bawak masuk bilik untuk bini dia makan. kikiki. bab tu memang boleh dipuji lah. tulah aku cakap, setiap orang ni ada keburukan dan kebaikan dia. kita kena terima dengan lapang dada jelah. Dalam buruk dia, ada jugak baiknya.

Macam suami aku, kaki game. yang ni memang aku taw daripada sebelum kahwin. aku dah memang faham sangat kalau pergi shopping mall, memang akan masuk kedai cd game. kadang kadang aku rela bawak dia melencong tempat lain, sebab nak distract attention dia daripada melawat kedai game. sometimes berjaya, sometimes failed.haha

pada aku, biarlah dia main game mengadap xbox kat rumah. at least ade depan mata aku. aku taw la kegiatan dia. asalkan main game berpada-pada jangan sampai tak tidur, tak gi kerja, aku ok je. eh tipu kadang kadang aku menyirap jugak. tapi aku pujuk jugak hati sendiri. dia tak pernah kacau kalau aku tidur (which is my hobby) why should i bother if he's doing his hobby?

keyword, be patient. kalau tengah marah, memang kita jadi tak rasional. what i suggest is, take a step back, calm down, think rationally.

Definition of Friends

Being married, some of my friends might think I will forget them. Some might say I put my husband on top of  my priorities, my attention is shifted, my husband is everything, I wont be the same, etc.

Yes I do admit that my husband is my everything. He means world for me. I would not trade him for the world. Who on their right mind would not love their husband (exception given to a psycho husband). He is my priority.

However, I did not forget my friends. Irony is, the one who said  I would forget them is the one who forget me. How ironic is that huh? How she used to be my best friend, until she is surrounded by someone free and doesn't have commitment like me. Oh well I'm married. I don't have much time for her but that doesn't mean I don't have time for her at all.

She is the one who DID NOT attend my wedding. Frankly speaking, I don't feel offended because I have seen this coming. It is so predictable.

I have learnt to not give a fuck bout this shit. People come and people go but the best will stay with you. No matter what you have gone through. Best friends are not those who are always by your reach, but those who are near to your heart.

No matter how far you are with your best, but the remembrance that matters most. I am so glad to have few best friends that I always feel comfortable to be with. I can be myself, with some imperfections. I'll accept them for who they are, for their imperfections.

I have learnt to let go those who take me for my granted. No need to waste my energy for these people.

random rambling

Aku start kerja sebagai tenaga pengajar Unitar since 23rd Dec 2013. Kolej tempat aku kerja di Pahang ni buat twinning program dengan Unitar Almost 3 weeks dah aku kat sini. Ape yang aku perhatikan, kat kolej tempat aku belajar ni, memang ambience dia jauh berbeza dengan UPM tempat aku belajar. Pernah aku suarakan dengan suami, perihal tenanga kerja kolej yang aku sifatkn berbeza dengan lecturer tempat aku belajar. Suami kata, be realistic. U cant compare a public university and a private university which is money oriented. U know what I mean.

Frankly speaking, i pity the students so much. They were not briefed about the fees and cost of the studies. Could you imagine, a PTPTN loan of 20k solely for the fees? How much left for the daily expenses? NIL. Tu belom lagi cerita pasal dah hujung semester baru ada lecturer English (Im talking bout myself here.lol). I tried so hard to make their loan amount worth it. I printed every single note i found in the internet. I wanted the students to excel so that they get the knowledge and obtain great pointer so that they dont have to pay their loan. I have been there, bearing the loan.

tapi ade la jugak bagi moral support. Bagi semangat kat diorang. Hope they will succeed. Sekarang aku dah faham ape cikgu and lecturer aku rasa dulu. macam mana risaunya aku malam sebelom exam tu, macam aku sendiri pulak nak exam!

Aku harap aku boleh survive. Next class will be on 3rd Feb. Almost 1 month lagi.haha. melangut jela aku ni.

Tips Rumahtangga Bahagia #1

Hamboi tajuk kemain lagi.Kalah Semanis Kurma kot.haha. Tips ni bukan lah idea aku sepenuhnya tapi berdasarkan pembacaan, pemerhatian, dan pengalaman hidup aku juga. Kahwin baru 6 bulan, ada hati nak bagi tips. Some of you might say this. But hello, kalau nak melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya. Kalau nak membentuk pasangan biarlah dari awal perkahwinan kan. Ok mungkin tips ni tak relevan untuk orang lain, tapi aku rasa setuju dengan tips ni. 

Tips 1.

Jadi rakan atau isteri. Bukannya ibu kepada suami sendiri.

It means kita layan suami kita sebagai seorang suami. Bukan sebagai anak. Jujurnya aku pon apply benda ni dalam rumahtangga aku. Sebagai pasangan, kena tolong menolong. Takkan as a wife, kau sorang je kena masak, basuh pinggan, basuh baju, kemas bilik, cuci bilik air. Kahwin ni sebenarnya perkongsian hidup. Katil berkongsi, takkan kerja rumah taknak kongsi ye dak? Kalau sama-sama buat kerja kan lagi ringan beban. lagi cepat beres kerja. Dah beres kerja boleh bermanja laki bini nak bergolek depan TV ke ape semua boleh. 

Kepada suami yang rasa diri tu darjat tinggi sangat sampai taknak tolong bini, silakan sediakan pembantu rumah ye. Kang bini ko letih, dah tidur awal. Nanti ko jugak nak complaint bini tak nak bagi layanan batin kat ko. dah kata bini tu kerja, balik kena membanting tulang kat dapur. dah masak untuk makan malam lagi, pastu mesti kena kemas dapur. Kang ko complaint bini pengotor. Kang masuk bilik air, nampak pulak baju tak berbasuh. kena cuci baju pulak. tu belom lagi nak mandikan anak, bancuh susu anak, suapkan anak. anak dah tidur, barulah bini ko dapat rehat.

seriously aku rasa lelaki yang rajin tolong bini nampak lagi macho. nasib baik lah aku dapat laki yang boleh diharap. setakat basuh baju, cuci toilet tu senang je buat. cuma kalau masak tu memang fail sikit lah. aku tak kesah pon sebab kalau laki aku masak, kerja mengemas dah jadi double. nak goreng fries je pon, tapi sudip sampai dua jenis. belom lagi dengan minyak tumpah lagi. haha. setakat kerja potong sayur tu memang boleh la. tu pon syukur sangat lah dapat laki yang boleh bertolak ansur. setakat kurang sikit-sikit tu bisalah. tutup mata jelah. aku pon bukan lah perfect sangat. yang penting bertolak ansur.